Views from a BrewTown Sista (aka The Chronicles of Kayleah H. Madison)

  I had planned to go all-out on the weekend of my birthday. For all of you who are reading this, my 42nd birthday happened last Friday, October 26. So I am another year into my 40's. Growing old gracefully might not be a pleasant resort. Well, any plans of having another dull, ho-hum birthday was thrown out the window by receiving about 30 text messages from my friends on facebook, which basically lasted all day. I eventually did a YouTube video to thank everyone for remembering my dubious occasion. Every birthday for the past decade, I have set my watch to mark the exact time (8.15 am) I came out into the world to match the time given on my actual birth certificate. Really! Then & only then will I start admitting that I am a year older. Sucks though. Another year added to my age content.  Adding to this eventful day was my friend Shawn getting me some (surprise surprise) pistachio almond ice cream from Baskin-Robbins. (Maybe bragging about it on facebook helped the case.)

So it happened.   After all the crap that I posted on this blog last week, I went ahead and came out to my congregation by dressing up, as so in the above picture. Remember that I also joked about what next? Well, I'll tell ya. No, scratch that...I'll SHOW you...  I will admit that today went very well. The congregation even sung me "Happy Birthday", even though they didn't know what to call me when I dress like this. Kayleah is not that hard to pronounce, but when you've never heard that name used before, that won't roll off the tongue quite so easily. Most of the choir got to understand its pronounciation after explaining it a few times. One thing that was in unison: How much of a lady I looked today. Spent some time doing my hair this morning. Applying my makeup didn't take that much time at all.  They also couldn't believe that my outfit was purchased via ebay. Really!  Not since attending the first Rockford Pride Fest had I worn makeup i

https://www.facebook.com/groups/springcreekucc/                                              "I find sometimes it's easy to be myself; sometimes I find it's better to be            somebody    else".          So Much To Say, Dave Matthews Band   The line does speak for itself. I can be me at times, then be Kayleah for another time. Same theory goes for me attending my church. I may have worn foundation, eye shadow & nail polish during Sunday service yet still had the physical position as a dude. This coming Sunday, since I let the cat out of the bag on facebook last week about it, I am dressing as Kayleah to show my feminine side. Not saying that everyone on facebook already knew that. Or for those who saw me at Rockford's first Pride Fest should already know that I have been "different" for the longest time. If this country can't accept people wanting to be just as they are, even if it means dressing as or completely changing to ano

facebook.com/kayleah.hutchinsmadison Some of you have at least read my previous blogs about wanting to express my feminine side at church this Sunday. That's all fine & dandy.At my church, all are welcome, including the LGBT! But forgive me for waiting so long to finally do this. I will make a YouTube video about it as well! I can always take more photos of me dolled up, right? Now, I am deciding between a few outfits that I currently have in my wardrobe. This I know: most of these outfits I have worn in the past at least once. Many are in pictures scattered about my facebook page. Also in my possession is my trusty hot comb, or to you a hair straightener, which I have used scarcely, most recently prior to Rockford Pride. I do need to improve how my hair looks instead of constantly greasing it back with some hair gel that's supposed to keep my hair growing. Last I checked, it's somewhat thin in the back, bush on the sides and flat on the brow. Even obtained a curlin

I was chatting with a few church members today about something that I have been wanting to do since joining Spring Creek United Church of Christ earlier this summer. The choice of coming in full womanhood attire is entirely up to me. I may have mentioned that I can come dressed either way. At least I know that's a possibility in the near future. Now to choose a date to do it. Pictures will definitely be posted here, facebook and elsewhere. I am still welcome  at SCUCC no matter what. Even to this day I wonder what people will say about how I look, how I speak, walk, all that crap. It's time for me to not be worried about them. Time to be happy of what I see in the mirror. Screw the naysayers that disapprove of my "lifestyle"! Since growing up in the late 1970's I knew I was different. I can definitely pass as a woman. So I'd have a lower voice and walk a little different. What's so different from expressing myself at Rockford Pride in June than attending

I almost forgot that MySpace wasn't the only blogging site that I had. Here's a recent picture of me that I'm not ashamed to promote! 4 months after posting my first blog on Blogger I finally add something else to the mix....just to keep the other one not so lonely. So, if there are anyone reading my blog for the first time, welcome, and allow me to introduce myself. My name is Kayleah D. Hutchins-Madison, and I reside in northern Illinois (NOT Chicago!!!) I will soon become 42 years of age by the end of this month, and I am still searching for my place in life. So far, I may be heading in the right direction: I joined a church that is LGBT-friendly, participated in my city's inaugural Pride Fest (hence the above photo), joined the church's sanctuary and bell choirs, as well as the Events Planning and ONA groups. Still, I feel that God still wants me to do something special with my life while I still can, though I haven't the slightest idea what He wants me t