October Sky

It has been a few weeks since my last blog, so it's time to do an update! This pic you see to the left was from today (10/12/14). I do like how this hair looks. The bitch is I'll have to redo everything when I wash my hair again! Anyway, this month now marks six months since going full-time, yet I still haven't resuming hormones. I started a new medical insurance plan this month, but I needed to re-order a new medical card. I still pray the cost of them aren't steep for my budget. 

In a few weeks, I have a big day planned for the 26th. Well, what would YOU want me to do on my birthday, sleep my ass off? I still want to go get wasted in a proper way. I always say that, hoping to get some attention. Everyday I see myself in the mirror, I see myself becoming more and more of the woman I visioned becoming a decade ago. My hair helps feminize my facial curves, and my nails are always painted...and still growing! Until I am back on hormones, I do regularly wear a bra, which does help create a nice bust and a little cleavage. But I have to shave my face daily for the best effects. Add a nice splash of foundation and powder and I can at least work on curving my eyebrows for the right look. I even started looking at how I apply my blush. The lipstick, however, has always been my favorite. So I sleep wearing lipstick w/ a gloss. I am just so used to seeing myself this way, why change it?

I know living as a woman will have a few drawbacks. Yeah, yeah, I know about my voice, and I know it will take time to get it the right tone. Still have boyish traits from childhood that won't leave anytime soon. Why give a shit on how I walk, anyway? I sure as hell don't want to be walking on one of those catwalk fashion shows! I digress. Correct me if I am wrong, but I am choosing to live as a woman for myself! A transwoman of color that isn't ashamed of myself or how I see myself in a mirror. Tell this to my eldest sister! I really don't care if we ever talk again, sadly. She knew I was different a long time ago. 

October also brung a change in strategy for Hutchins World Travel. The website has now changed gears to Wix.com. At least I can pay monthly than all at once. They do have that option to finally get spotted on those search engines, which can get me customers. I prayed about this recently. I hope God was listening.